First thing - Cousin Alec had a successful surgery last Monday, on his birthday. They were able to take out almost all of the tumor. He starts a long year of chemo-therapy/radiation soon though. He has a tough year a head of him! We are hoping he might react as best that can be expected to his treatments.
Sandi was in town Tuesday night/Wednesday. She spoiled us terribly! We went out for dinner at Mimi's cafe, which was delicious. And then we went and saw Wolverine - LOVED it. We went out for lunch on Wednesday before she headed up to Salt Lake to catch her flight. It was fun to have her here. She got to see the apartment, and we stayed up late just chatting on Tuesday night.
We have been taking a few loads to the new apartment in Orem. We continue to be so excited to move in to this new place. Lots of room! I keep trying to picture how we'll decorate and organize all our furniture, etc we'll just have to wait until we get it all in. I love thinking about how much more room Raja will have to run around too.
I think it's ironic that I am miscarrying over Mother's Day weekend. The doctor Tuesday said I should start miscarrying within the week and I started spotting Wednesday night. But then it really started Thursday afternoon, and the pain/cramps really really started Friday late morning... The worst of it is over, but I hope it's all over with soon! Last time it took 5 weeks. The EAGeR study I've been working with since last October, offers free genetic testing on the miscarriage tissue. We should be getting results in the next 6 weeks.
I have been emotionally doing incredible compared to my first loss. I only had a very hard time on Thursday. Since I have been open about it all, a few acquaintances have emailed me and we have become great friends! These friends have been going through similar struggles - miscarriage/infertility. And after emailing with them back and forth so many times we decided there's got to be more like us in similar situations who could use some extra support from those who may understand their situation from experience. So I started a new blog, http://www.nevercomfortless.blogspot.com/. I am hoping anyone will feel comfortable sharing their 'story' and difficulties/struggles because those who read them on this blog are going through similar things. I love how a friend put it, ""I think the blog will be a good thing, but I know it is a sensitive subject and there's always the worry there when you're talking about something that personal. But I think those of us that have miscarried(or been trying to get pregnant for a long time) could use something like a support group. I feel like if I do one more miscarriage post on my blog that it will get old for people who don't know what this is like for me. But it doesn't get old for people that have been through it, because you never forget."" It's difficult though, I feel like I've been walking on egg shells, but hopefully I won't offend anyone and it will be a tool to love and support women who are going through difficult times getting their family here on Earth. If you know of any one that might benefit or be interested in joining this blog, please invite them or let me know!
Friday night was the best date night ever... Sierra and Phil came over and we went to the nickelcade. I got the top score on pacman! I think they may have reset the scores and the top score wasn't the highest it's ever been... b/c it only took 3 tries to beat it. I really enjoyed the nickelcade though... we wasted lots of nickels on a game that gives a good amount of tickets and we traded them in for 5 bracelets, a BIG blue ring, Chinese finger trap, and a tattoo that said "Flower Girl". . . and gave them to Olivia Saturday night - she was a fan. After nickelcade we got yummy sub zero ice cream and saw Star Trek. Yes - a very nice date night. We haven't done something like that in forever, and it was just a blast.
Sandi was in town Tuesday night/Wednesday. She spoiled us terribly! We went out for dinner at Mimi's cafe, which was delicious. And then we went and saw Wolverine - LOVED it. We went out for lunch on Wednesday before she headed up to Salt Lake to catch her flight. It was fun to have her here. She got to see the apartment, and we stayed up late just chatting on Tuesday night.
We have been taking a few loads to the new apartment in Orem. We continue to be so excited to move in to this new place. Lots of room! I keep trying to picture how we'll decorate and organize all our furniture, etc we'll just have to wait until we get it all in. I love thinking about how much more room Raja will have to run around too.
I think it's ironic that I am miscarrying over Mother's Day weekend. The doctor Tuesday said I should start miscarrying within the week and I started spotting Wednesday night. But then it really started Thursday afternoon, and the pain/cramps really really started Friday late morning... The worst of it is over, but I hope it's all over with soon! Last time it took 5 weeks. The EAGeR study I've been working with since last October, offers free genetic testing on the miscarriage tissue. We should be getting results in the next 6 weeks.
I have been emotionally doing incredible compared to my first loss. I only had a very hard time on Thursday. Since I have been open about it all, a few acquaintances have emailed me and we have become great friends! These friends have been going through similar struggles - miscarriage/infertility. And after emailing with them back and forth so many times we decided there's got to be more like us in similar situations who could use some extra support from those who may understand their situation from experience. So I started a new blog, http://www.nevercomfortless.blogspot.com/. I am hoping anyone will feel comfortable sharing their 'story' and difficulties/struggles because those who read them on this blog are going through similar things. I love how a friend put it, ""I think the blog will be a good thing, but I know it is a sensitive subject and there's always the worry there when you're talking about something that personal. But I think those of us that have miscarried(or been trying to get pregnant for a long time) could use something like a support group. I feel like if I do one more miscarriage post on my blog that it will get old for people who don't know what this is like for me. But it doesn't get old for people that have been through it, because you never forget."" It's difficult though, I feel like I've been walking on egg shells, but hopefully I won't offend anyone and it will be a tool to love and support women who are going through difficult times getting their family here on Earth. If you know of any one that might benefit or be interested in joining this blog, please invite them or let me know!
Friday night was the best date night ever... Sierra and Phil came over and we went to the nickelcade. I got the top score on pacman! I think they may have reset the scores and the top score wasn't the highest it's ever been... b/c it only took 3 tries to beat it. I really enjoyed the nickelcade though... we wasted lots of nickels on a game that gives a good amount of tickets and we traded them in for 5 bracelets, a BIG blue ring, Chinese finger trap, and a tattoo that said "Flower Girl". . . and gave them to Olivia Saturday night - she was a fan. After nickelcade we got yummy sub zero ice cream and saw Star Trek. Yes - a very nice date night. We haven't done something like that in forever, and it was just a blast.
Saturday I worked 8-noon. And then went up and met Gates, from the mission, for lunch in salt lake. It was such a good time to catch up. I love it when we get together, and we don't do it often enough! I got back to Provo, we took another load to the Orem apartment and then went out to PG at Ben/Mel's for homemade SUSHI!! I made some won tons and we brought watermelon... it was the yummiest dinner ever. I want to make it again this week! Mel made this most amazing dessert too. It was rice with coconut syrup? not sure what it was with mangoes on top - it was very delicious! And... we watched a movie. I loved this weekend!Today, Happy Mother's Day! We went out to PG to be with the grandparents and family. Dinner was amazing, thanks to the uncles and grandpa. It is just so nice to be so close to family and I love my grandparents! They are so kind to us. Plus, I didn't see a single pregnant person today - I cannot remember the last time that has happened. It was a refreshing and very nice weekend, and I am so grateful for that!! When we came home from PG tonight I went in mega craft mode and finished the bulletin board... the ribbon is noticeably not even, but I like what Seth said about that "If it was perfectly even, it wouldn't look home made." :) Good reply to my complaint babe. Also, I made a few magnets and a darling frame that Melissa showed me how to do yesterday. I love it.
I have been feeling so good about life lately. With the events that have occurred the last few weeks... we've been so uplifted and strengthened compared to the similar situation we found ourselves in 9 months ago. I realize how much I've grown since then. I have closer friends and a wonderful support group. My family has been so supportive and helpful. And because we have been better at reading the scriptures as a couple and couple prayer, and personal prayer - we've been strengthened and prepared. And of course Raja is a significant part. . . She is so much fun to have around. I'm always excited to come home and wish I could take her with me places. She lays next to me when I'm crying, and likes my salty tears - but that really hurts, her tongue is quite rough. She's a sweet, sweet cat and she is so fun. We have been so blessed! And I am SO excited that we are going to Iowa for a week and a half on Thursday!!! It is time for a vacation! And I'm even looking forward to the drive, I love that road trip just with Seth.I love her!!: And I love These, From Seth over last weekend:
4 comments:
I'm glad you had a good weekend and that things are getting back to "normal". I always wonder what normal is because life is constantly changing.
I am hoping that grandma Burke changes her mind about going up to Iowa. When Wayne talked to her yesterday it sounded like she was still contemplating it...we shall see what happens. I secretly wish she decides to go because I really would like to.
I'm sorry to hear. What is interesting is about 50% or more of my friends have had at least one miscarriage. They are more common than most of us think. I had a friend who just had her 3rd, and her 2nd one was with twins. I think that blog will be great for her! I'll let her know about it.
So sorry to hear about your second loss. I am glad that you are starting the other blog. I think it is a great idea! I would have loved to read something like that when I had my miscarriage.
I hope that the genetic testing from the Eager study gives you some answers. I am in the study, too, small world.
Hi, I grew up with Seth. I'm so sorry you guys have gone through this...and more than once! It's a horrible thing. My sister-in-law miscarried twice before she finally carried a child to term. And a friend of mine lost her son at 5 months along. Be grateful to have each other and know that everything does happen for a reason. God never gives us more than we can handle. And remember Pre. Hinckley once said that we will be mothers to all of our children in heaven, including the ones we were never able to hold in our arms on earth.
Meredith
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